a lot on my mind - update
so… when i woke up this saturday morning, i didn’t have an appetite cuz of all that was on my mind. i was so preoccupied with my thoughts that i couldn’t think about eating. and now, through a lot of thinking, i’ve come up with pages of writing. unfortunately, it’s not for my blog, so i won’t post it here. it instead is for me, for notes to organize and remember all the thoughts and conclusions that i’ve been able to figure out today, and to use as a guide to help me share my thoughts with those it affects.
and amazingly, once i finished writing those two pages, i totally scarfed down all my leftovers from all the meals i didn’t eat today. it’s amazing how much my appetite can return once my mind has been cleared. and even though i’ve already returned to what i had written and added several key points to it, i know that i have the gist of it figured out and i believe that what i’ve written should express myself the right way. hopefully. oh goody, part of the anxiety is coming back… but seriously, i think i’ve made lotsa progress today just by talking it out to myself, and i think i’m ready to share part of it now.
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